The Devil as it were, comes in all shapes and sizes i've learned, wether it be the food we eat or the girl at work we see almost every day, bad luck on loosing a pet, a mean phrase or coment made by someone, a disease, a common cold, clothes, money, etc... Now at the same time, all those things can also take the place of something more good, well needed or even well deserved. What's important here is to keep your glasses on so you can find the silver lining in anything. And yes I do mean ANYTHING. Now I know most of you are strating to think about the worst things to prove me wrong, but I have to ask why the hell you are searching so hard in your head for something bad? Do you really want to think that hard about all those bad things that you know exsist in the world or has just recently happend to you? Take pride and find happiness in the smallest of things.... think back to those days where nothing went right, yet something happend, just one small thing to make you start smiling. Those are some of my favorite days. And remember "look next door, the person next to you probably has it worse"

This all came up at the prime time of 4:12 AM because I realized eating tuna at this time is really not good for you - Devil= food. I also had had a long day of 12 hours at work. Man moving boxes around is tuff yet it helped me get my mind off some of the less exciting things from earlier that day. Like for example one of the cashiers... I had made the fatal mistake of making the comment "... and I had to use the last $40 to bail my cat out of the SPCA holding cell, so now I have no money to last me through next week. I think I have $4 left." - Devil = bad luck and money. She then decided it would be a good idea to one-up me (which may I say she ALWAYS seems to do to everyone) "oh I only have 35 cents in mine." I wanted at that point to call her out on the emence amount of bullshit spilling from her lips. First off she had stayed with me for 2 months rent free and she didn't pay a cent for food. Then she had recieved a cheque from the goverment for $1000. Just over actually. Now She is not my girlfriend therefor I don't give a shit what she chooses to do with her money however that last comment was bullshit. Anyways I decided to spend my last bit of money on a begal - silver linning= i get one last meal. My tummy thanked me later for that choice. I later recived bad news that one of the other girls at work (who had been VERY ill for about a week now) is getting tested for lung cancer - Devil = Disease. I feel for her in such away that is an actual nothing. In fact, I don't feel anything. Now hear me out... Everyone sees this as a horrible thing. It changes lives... and it's always ina bad way. I however have never experienced Cancer of any sort (although I honestly expect it in my later years) so I can't really know how to think or feel about the subject. Therefor I feel.... sad yes but nothing realisticly. (on a side note I have also known 3 people who have had cancer and beat it. Devil= Disease. -Silver linning = Disease beatin fuckers!) All I could think of after learning this horrible fact was that the girl who always one-uped everyone hadn't said a word about how she was feeling sick. Finally! although she keeps bringing up the topic of when she had cancer and how she might have it again but she probably won't see a doctor Devil= sympathy and stupidity, Silver lining= having the ability to cut the conversation short. Another girl later came on shift who had filled in on her day off for the girl who may or may not have lung cancer Silver linning = people giving a shit and helping. She is always so happy and we tend to feed off each other for finding good things out of bad things -Silver lining = positive thinking. Also my boss bought me fries near the end of the long shift and came in to help me - silver lining = good deeds. also the chick who's all happy and one of the guys i work with told me my skin looks alot better and less acne - Silver lining = nice phrase. I also told one of my good friends who had just broke up with her boyfriend that when she got back from work we would make Guiness cup cakes - Silver linning = helping a friend. Sean also came back into my life recently... my leather wearing boy. The only boy to ever break my heart. we are having an other date this saturday :) - silver lining = luck, the right place at the right time and fallowing those deep and hidden feelings. Anyways i'm starting to get sleepy but I must say I have the urge to play piano, go to dance classes again, and start working out. I'll keep my purple hair and continue to skateboard and meet new people. And even of Trevor and Erica don't remember that I recently was the only person who stayed by their sides and gave them my house to live in and held them while they cried about their friends dieing and me feeding them and everything... I don't mind because I did it for them without knowing or expecting anything back. I hope I helped :)

Where I am now -silver lining = everything happens for a reason

*~Ashley~*

LAter Days!