So here I sit at 7:26 in the morning. I guess this is when heartbreak sets in. I love James to death but I’m not so sure this is even remotely working now. I just was hurt by him “not caring” and right now I’d rather not go in to details about it but I’m up now after crying a lot and I find myself having no where to turn to except my horny cat Sweetie that seems to be in heat. She is mine and James’ cat. I don’t know what’s going to happen to her now that we are more than likely breaking up. It’s really sad. I mean I love him but this relationship has taken its toll on both of us. I just hope he won’t bad talk about me because I certainly won’t about him. I do however want some pictures to remember him by. I hope he doesn’t rip any pictures he has of me up. I wish he could still be in my life but sadly I doubt it. I also hope he will take bits with him into the next relationship. I’ve never cheated on him and I hold on to that with pride. It’s not in me to cheat. I am loyal. Well it looks like I won’t be keeping my Fire Bird. Damn eh? Meh.. it looks like it would turn out to be more work than needed. But im stubborn and I at least wanted to try. Needless to say I won’t be going into any relationships for along time. Im better single. But I don’t sleep around. Whoever im with is who I sleep with. And with an exception it’s basically been just James. I guess he won’t be getting his V-Day gift from me. (it was a sex out fit) – (for me to ware not him) but nor will I get mine from him. I was looking forward to it. What ever will I do with my necklace he gave me for Christmas? Wear it all the time or put it away? And what about all our mangled things? What is to become of those? It will take a very long time to sort out. *sigh* Well now that my thoughts are at least down and not all muddled in my head I think I will try to eat and get at least a little more sleep before spending the day doing homework. So here is the part where I sign off… Later Days! *~Ashley~*