Okay so today in school i was a toatl emotional kid. I just felt like shit... what was i wearing you might ask? well im sure your not really thinking that but to set the mood as to why it dosn't make sence that i should feel this way... well here... Hair parted so some of my hair is in half my face, blue eye shadow all around the eyes with cat ticks, white tank top with blue sweater (sweater is blue striped and goes from after my belly button up... with long sleves-its on my Nexopia page --- lostmysanity) anwyays and dark blue nail polish, spiked suff, hot pink belt, fishnet stockings underneath my tight black pants... so i made my pants into kapree type things. yup... so thats what i looked liek tpday. everyone says i am their happyness. that isthe thign that keeps me going in school. i also hung out with teh grade 2s cuz i have to everyday. but i almost cryed 3 times today... it got so bad i almost had to leave the class room... i was a loner all day... i sat by myself not wanting company and barely gaining any. i was a loser today and i didn't mind. For if i am to go down in flames i might as well do it with a smile on my face in style and enjoy it. so yes and hayden (my boyfriend) said i was pritty... i had talked to Age (his sister) about hopw he has only said that i was pritty once. so i think she had somethign to do with that. i was just going to cry... and tomarrow im ditching every one of my friends to call my other friends that i haven't talked to in ages, im going to try and clean my living room/room, and im going to study my drivers book alittle, and just get my life under control. it's way to cayotic right now and its hard to handle... Well i should get going... Later Days. *~Ashley~*