So im taking a brake from all my homework that i procrastinated with... and i shall now tell you all how my day went. *sigh* okay so to start at the begining... i went to school dressed normal... and by normal i mean bell bottoms on (normal girl pants) and a light blue top from Garage, my hair pulled back into a ponytail and no makeup on. everyone was like "Nice costume Ashley" or they said "im disapointed in your outfit Ash..." silly kids... don't they know that this is what they wanted? they had almost all requested that i dress normal and sadly they got what they wished for... but i couldn't last all day and after i took a shower from are really sweaty gym class i changed back to normal me! Plad skirt, converses, red t-shirt with blank tanktop over it, cuff, black bandana around my neck, dark eyes, scull earing ... oh ya im rocking! anyways so after school (oh by teh way since i cant be a child councilor i can use job experiance by going to the Gr.2 room and help out last period with their Math) i went and hung out at Eagles Cliff with Tyler and Corry. then after them doing a few jumps we came back down and met up with Jason (who i don't like)and Tyler made this jump. so Jordan (12 years old) jumped it okay and so did Corr (very pro biker-and i do mean VERY!!!) but Tyler never went cuz Jason showed up. Hayden and Age came over where we all were and i asked Tyler if i could "see" his bike... this is the convo... Me: "Can i see your bike for a sec?" Tyler: "umm... i dont think so" Me: "come on tyler... ill bring it right back i just want to... try the jump..." Tyler: "hey Hayden!... would you let Ashley go on the jump?" Hayden: "i really don't care, she can do whatever the hell she wants." Tyler: "err... here.." so he slowely gave me the bike and i jumped on with him calling back "if you whipe out its not my fualt!" so i got really fast and rememebred that 'holy shit! i haven't gone over a jump before... exsept when i was in grade 3 i stoped and i used to bike all the time and go over jums that were like what? 3 inches? lol' so my first jump i wanted to chiken out but i thought whatever you only live once so i went up.... and straight down. what did you think was goign to happen? im Ashley remember? so i didn't know anyone was watching but tehy ALL couldn't stop laughing and Age (dispite her laughter) came troting over and asked if i was okay. i was. a few scrapes and bruses, a little blood but i was fine. my nerves were a little fucked up and my whoel arm was shakeing... so everyoen is laughing is saying "are you allright? hahaha holy man Ashley! i love you!" ya and everyone that was there said i was tehir hero. but i always am.. im Ashley! so later tonight i had a brake down and cryed. i get these every 4 or more months... sometimes every 2. you see i have to boddle everything up inside and notr let go that much even to anyone cuz i get very angry and i hurt people... like my mom was going to send me to Anger Managment near teh end of Grade 9. so instead i hold in alot of stuff and it fades away to the back of my mind where it stays untill it over flows and i cry it out... then there's nothing left and it can start over again. :) its harmless. but i have a feelign that i have to work sooo hard to keep on track .... i have to much stuff to do and a big ass Apoligie goes out.... ******************************************************************************* A BIG "IM SORRY!" GOES OUT TO ALL MY FRINDS WHO I'VE BEEN SAYING I'LL CALL AND NEVER DO. IM SORRY! AND I WILL TRY AND MAKE IT UP... BUT HANG IN WITH THE 'ASH IS A LOSER AND IM GOIGN TO KILL HER FOR BRAKEING A PROMIS' THOUGHTS AND I WILL TOATLY MAKE IT UP.. JUST LET ME GET ORGANIZED. SO ONCE AGAIN... I AM SOOO SORRY!!! ******************************************************************************* well i really must go do my homework... Later Days! *~Ashley~*