Hmmm… you know what’s funny? First off my mom ha sbeen letting me do way, way more stuff. So she must “trust” me for the most part again I think. I don’t friken know. And I don’t care either. I want to get my lip pierced. Anyways… so I’ve been at mom’s office for two days now answering phones and on MSN. Oh man am I ever board. Like seriously. Okay so I think its funny that we were watching this show on Tv and it was Law & Order. But ya so this girl gets pregnant (first time) and her dad had kicked his older daughter out because both girls promised that they wouldn’t have sex until they got married. But the older one got pregnant (first time aswell) and she told her dad because they were in the U.S and needed a parents signature to have an abortion. But the dad disowns his daughter and thinks his younger one would never do that. So the younger daughter does have sex and stuff and she wants an abortion… but she cant tell her dad cuz she’s afraid of him and afraid of getting kicked out and this fake abortion clinic makes her wait until its to late to get one so she starts beating the shit out of her tummy and makes her boyfriend do it too. When the dad finds out he freaks and says that the boy raped her and to throw him in jail but they finally convince him that that’s not what happened. Anyways… in the end me and mom were discussing it and she said that she wouldn’t approve but she would never disown me if I was that girl (like the father did) but she would support me and help me through it. Now for those of you who know my mom do you think she’d really do that? I mean I know she wouldn’t kick me out but do you think that she would actually be nice about it? HELLS NO! well at least I don’t think so. I mean after seeing “the weekend” thing I have no idea. Which brings me to the whole reason why my heart is beating really fast, I swear I’d hyperventilate if I wasn’t keeping my cool. You see my mom wants to put me on “the pill” which is fine. I mean whatever. But I think she has suspicions about me still being a virgin. So the reason I’m so freaked is that she thinks I should have a Pap test or something “to see if I have any cancerous things” okay first of all! I don’t give a flying fuck if I have cancer or not, I mean ill still live my life just fine. Second I don’t know if it can tell weather or not I’m a virgin or not cuz if it can then I’m fucked. I mean I don’t know what to do. I know that when I had to take these pills for my acne I had to go get a blood test (and as most of you know I hate needles) so I just barely got passed that cuz they were going to take blood to do tests to see if I was allergic or not. Oh man. Like two viles. But ya I didn’t have to cuz I stopped taking the pills. Just in time. And I wasn’t allergic. But how the hell do I get past this? I’m scared shitless. I want Kat to be there with me if I get it done. That way if anything happens ill have her there to help me out. I mean my mom loves her and I know she’s responsible and I mean she’d never let anything happen to me cuz I’m her dog. But ya. And I talked to my mom about the whole Kat and moving thing and she is willing to let her stay with us. See? My mom is avery contradicting person. She is all about “me! Me! Me! Look after yourself first!” but then she has those times where she actually thinks and she cares about others and helps them out. She’s one of those people that think the whole world is out to get her cuz she’s a single parent. Oh my god. She’s dumb. And Richard has gone back to work. Which is good in a way. Oh! Okay so Sherry is really depressed and stuff cuz her grandchildren got taken and the court won’t give them to anyone and oh man its in the best interest of the children if they agve them to Sherry. And she’s fit to take care of them. It’s so retarded and easy but to explain it would be complicated. Anyways ya and the court is holding off the hearing until July. FUCK! Those kids would be in Foster care for a year. I swear I’ll bitch slap every last one of them. I feel bad for the kids and they’re 4 and 7 and the courts think they’re to young for a councilor. Well Christ! I had one at about that age! Seriously! So yes, yes… and I haven’t talked to anyone in a while. I talked to Emo!! I miss him so much! I love that kid. I didn’t know I’d miss him this much. I mean I knew I would but not this much. I just want to hug him and not let him go. I miss him making fun of me and saying how much of a tard I am. I miss him. I miss talking about stuff with him. And girls being stupid. I also havn’t seen or heard anything from Hayden in a while. But im in the habbit of keeping my light on until 2 AM for anyone who creeps outside my window and may need to talk to me. Haha however I also have to sleep on my tummy cuz I sleep naked. BAHAHA! But I should get going… Later Days! *~Ashley~*