Pulling the leopard print blankets off of my face I wake up to the smell of some fucking boy fumes left over from my buddy that stayed over the night before. I crawled to the bathroom after tripping over clothes and shoes... at least I didn't step on my belt again, bullets fucking hurt when you step on them. Bathroom is a mess... skin and ink still in the sink from the night before when Rav got his sleves finished. I throw water on my face and look around... leopard skirt, skinny-jeans, studded belts and converse with some make up throw in for good measure all over the place. I go to the frige after pounding back some water... just as i thought, a few rotting tomatoes and a beer or two... well shit... might as well drink the beers... that'll fill my tummy right?
Fucking lame is what it all is... it's been Halloween for 4 days (or a week for me) i throw on some skinny-jeans... black of course, bullet belt and studded belt, hooters wife-beater and some spider web converse. ughhh i'll have to work tonight. I could always go in half cut, no one will notice. Plus I am the assistant manager after all :P
Fucking god damn lame... drinking for a week and the real reason is, it's because of my boyfriend who hasn't called in 7 days. His phone is broken and he's been busy working and moving downtown. I on the other hand work two jobs now, 7 days a week and i'm studying to go to school for some hardcore stuff. Yet I can still find time to fucking call him and hang out with friends. Clearly something is lacking right now and clearly i need to sort this out with him. I guess i'll have to wait another week for a phonecall. When we broke up he first time i went on a 2 month binge and managed to pull myself out of it. This time we're still together and i've started early. we'll see what happens.
Fucking phone! it won't shut up... Ramones ring tone playing over and over... it's my work... they don't know any of the codes for the computer... now it's my muslim friend wanting to go for coffee... and really? all i want to do is keep drinking. BAd idea eh? meh... i'll be sober today. we'll see what happens next week... I wanted one more year of this shit... this fucking do or die bullshit... eveything is changing though.The punk house is getting shut down... everyone on the block got evicted and in a month or two they are tareing everything down for a hotel. Fucking hell. Janel at the other night's house party told me her and I should move in together... it just might save me from somethings... I should take her up on it.
Anyways, I gatta go meet Pretty, my muslim friend and save everyone at work from going crazy haha
Later Days and Happy Halloween
*~Ashley~*