ugh... school has started (wednesday actually) the new school is 3 floors of pure hell and confusion, still cant find my rooms... a senior dont need that added stress! i mean god it was supposed to be the *good year* and so far its the *i dont know where i am where im going how i got on this floor not enough time to talk to think to breathe- year* i feel over crowded with obligations and i havent even been asigned a single homework asignment yet! i mean thats gr8 but what happens when i am? JESUS CHRIST! i cant handle all this at all. ive only been there 3 days and it felt like 5 months (this will be a long year) 3 days and already *trouble picking out my clothes, thoughts of suicide-- lol, blowing off my friends, and missing the main school event ((the 1st football game)) jesus christ i feel like im out of touch with reality! who misses the 1st damn football game! oh well i wont miss any more of them!!! anyways *me* the simple plan of the year addict.... doesnt even have the cd cuz im 2 damn cheap ha! i usually just listen to them online on this basic program i have for storing songs... ha! but i *almost got it last night* dunno why i told you that but 2 me ((if u know me)) simple plan is life. hahaha im sure my friends are really annoyed. on another note... my word of the week is *jesus christ* i love that phrase and its so under used by me... so ill be sure to be using it more! me and bryan are doing okay... actually i think were doing much better. school might be a total waste of time but its helping us out (i think-- i hope) i get to hug my baby and kisss him everyday! didnt get to do that all summer each day! and god did i miss those kisses :( he's got the softest lips and most adorable smile! lemme tell ya! sometimes i have to touch his face when im kissing him to make sure its not a dream... i must be the luckiest girl ever to have found my perfect special hott sexy lovable romantic somebody at such a young age! weve had trials in the past... lets not get started on that!!! but i figure its more the hoes fault than his... but not *much* more of the hoes faults! just a bit more... but how can i stay mad at him hes 2 cute 2 sweet! man we've had some great times together now that i think about it... x-mas :) that was like the 1st time i told him i loved him!!! and it started to snow :) umm new years eve! we really had a blast! and v-day... the most romatic night of my life! the holiday of love and we spent it together :) he bought me the cutest things!!! and i bought him some ooh so adorable things too! actually he has his whole room covered in things ive made or bought him (and same with me) umm easter... that was sad but he got me some sweet presents and we were together the whole day : pretty much every holiday! and then some! 4-6-03 we gave each other our virginity! now that was the most romantic sweet thing ever! u have no idea! he made us a bed on the floor cuz my bed was squeeky... and he lit candles all around us. aww, he made a sweet cd for us and all... he was real gentle and real slow and even threw the pain i managaed to smile (often) there was one point that he looked at me and asked if i was okay and he told me he loved me... everytime we take a break i think about that and i start to cry just a lil... where did that sweet guy go? lol but i love him threw it all no matter what!!! and i cant wait to marry this boy! welp anyways this isnt my 1st journal i have others... about 6 actually... my best and most decorated... (which i could never part with on acount of my 50 some friends who read and post daily is at blurty.com (user name-spankalicious69) u can and will find a lot about my past there cuz i used to update often! welp im outie... drop a line leave the love send a note... lol w/e u wanna call it! lotsa love to my new readers!