*sigh* theres way 2 much drama in my life at the moment. we have off school today. thats ALWAYS good. it closed b4 any other school in our district for once... our school closed b4 carlisle, cumberland valley, ship... lol so i was watching and it was all york county and i flipped. then my sis starts screaming BIG SPRING BIG SPRING! and i was like FUCK YES! lol so that was my story for today. im talking to heather right now. hehe. i got up b4 i had to and stayed up for the 1st time since the 1st week of school. ::shocked and amazed:: the snow is fucking ugly... and hateful. i hope it all melts and turns to fucking ice. a guy named robert (bob) lol who imed me last night asked if i snowboard... i nearly freaked out on him... as i did on eli in resource... hahaha. ok snowboard... kill me please just shoot my fucking brain out of the back of my skull and throw my body off a cliff after u chop it into peices so small no one can identify me. ((did that make sense?)) o well u get the point. id love to push those fucking loser snowboarders down the mountain. i used to ski all the time until i got in a fight with some bitch at roundtop 3 years ago. but why would i even wanna be at roundtop now? its a bunch of sluts and loser freaks... gawd. i have strong passionate hate for that place. forever. lol -and aint it funny. anyways bryan called me last night. we cried together. you see. i was contemplating my suicide. but im still here damnit. i wanted bryan here. he even told me he tried to sneak the car. i just wanted to feel his arms around me tight. we talked about our memories. it made me utterly melancholy. well that tis all 4 now, MUSIC VIDEOS woohoo. 'hold on' was just on... gc has a way of making u cry with that song annnnd video. i hate it cuz i can relate so bad, then i cry because i know how bad i would hurt bryan to hurt myself. id be on the bus right now ugh. *bad thoughts* well tt4n