wow. seems like this diary is the only thing i do anymore online. thats not true... i talk to my friends and random people who IM me carrie seth carly heather tiff bryan adam lina brandy andrew jenni alex bena sam gav britt however i dont talk to jared brad perry patrick ryan marc mike brandon jeff matt abe josh smity robert mitchell chris jess jason nate nick people i used to hold a place in my heart 4. i watched the virgin suicides loved it. decided i know why its not easy 2 kill urself. b/c the whole world would die at 13. i recommend this movie. bryan had his away msg on all night, i left and he came back... bad timing. he didnt even write me. =( i sorta decided i wont live long enuff 2 see how hard life gets and as i watched the VS... my mom made a smart remark she needed punched 4 "now dont any of you kids kill yourself they will blame me" psht... well it would be the bitches fault. and does she only EVER think of HERSELF or what? i wonder if she knows i've tried to kill myself 4 times. (she knew i cut myself... she didnt care) i played it off as casual. thats a reason in itself to end my life. -next attempt wont be just an attempt... i had planned the perfect act of beautiful death why is it people make suicide out 2 be a joke... and dont care when they see it happening slowly in front of their eyes? i need a hair cut... hopefully that'll happen soon. tomorrows sunday. oh god. the bitch comes home... shes at the club right now, stupid whore. its a bunch of lil 13-16 year olds who have no business 'clubbin' shit... if ur 13-16 u should prolly still be *trying to get to 1st base* haha our society is going down hill. i dont give a fuck either. speaking of which: new email: kill-yerself@likeigiveafuck.com oh yes, and my brother is staying the night at sum1 else's house... ima stay up all night to enlong the time of my sisters arrival. goodbye cruel world. but only 4 now.