this is maybe the 1st holiday (if u wanna call it that) that me and bryan havent been together since we got together... *sigh* 1st thing this morning we fought... we havent fought in a while and now its all pilled on me all at once :( i really just want him to show up here without warning (u know how people do that sometimes lol) i want him to come in and hug me kiss me tell me he loves me :( so just for that small moment i can feel right where i belong like yesterday. he makes me feel like the person i used to be... that fun outgoing sweet lovable person that i lost somewhere last year :( my true friends seem to be the only ones that stuck around tho my old friends still manage to say hi and talk to me at school or online... (my true friends... jen, josh, heather, shayla, bena, jennie, tanya, abe the usual even carly whom ive never really met but is always there 2 listen and give hella awesome advice... and of course my bryan.) they are my only life... they are all i have! if u wanna get real down to the point... bryan is all i have all i care about all i need... well him and heather! threw the past year almost ive lost bryan so many times... and i duno what id do if i lost him 4 good :( its usually not even us that causes the drama its usually another girl or another guy... theres been many girls id wish a terrible death upon that have come between us but were still here were still making it... tho these hoes did make our relationship harder to deal with and a hell of a time. but what doesnt kill us makes us stronger leave me some kisses...