::sigh:: today was gay i cried. in front of everyone :'( i hate the fact that bryans love for me hurts him. that makes me sob. he doesnt want to see me die. god i love him all night i had hoped and prayed he'd come, he did but didnt stay or even stop. i want to feel his arms wraped around me... just us no problems at all. just us in my bed laying together intwined. i want him to be here tomorrow wether i do this or not i want him here. my lips have been so dry i think its because i havent been getting to kiss him as much. i think in the end were going to either work or ill die. theres no way in hell id let myself live to see him love again. he said he couldnt until he got over me... but he says thats not likely. theres no way we could let each other go. werement to be. and i know this in my heart.