this diary shall either be VERY MUCH REVAMPED *as in all pics and entries deleted* or just left to rot until i think im ready to see the hurt again... for now im unsure so leave me be. he's now a part of my history and i never thought it would happen. he doesnt even care about our unborn fucking child. oh well... tomorrow im dropping out of school, my moms really letting me! this is the only thing that makes me happy. i dont think me and bryan will ever be again but i still love him and i hate myself for it. whats going to happen to *our* future? can he touch someone else as he touched me? i cant do that, never. no matter what - he always said... he'd love me everlasting. i think he lied. but ill always have his virginity and thinking of keeping this baby. i left so much behind 4 him noone will ever dedikate their life to him like i have i hope he realizes this -he wasnt even gana tell me- i shoulda known better from the start. i have a new diary but its a secret type dealy *not hard 2 find tho if u wanna* leave comments if u wish... ill still comment back. thus the end to the worst day of my life.