i neatly organized the 'box full of hate' its full to the top... the things in it are so sweet and adorable... its love in itself no longer is it the box full of hate but now is the box of 'joyful' tears. as i said b4... what i feel 4 bryan isnt petty high school love. its like a soul mate... like something too strong for words. it is perfection but only 'with' a few kinks. but what doesnt have kinks? i cleaned my room today as well... i havent seen my floor in 2 months. i just hate doing it. no1 seems 2 care when its trashed either. looks like a big party was goin on... i was planning on going to the field of screams w/ bryan but i couldnt get a ride over to his house :( we barely get to talk w/ his new secret sn and me not knowing it but guess what! he imed me from it! he said he doesnt wanna be lonely and he doesnt wanna hide from me. i love him. im so glad he did that. he told me he wont talk to any other girls... and he gave me his password 2 prove it. im soo happy right now. with my clean room and me and bryan talking. the only thing better would be if he was here and i could jump him and start making out with him and raping him wildly hahahaha. oh well... theres hope 4 the future! i talked to a million people 2day on this damn thing... the ones that stuck out were: Girl [7:01 PM]: u know, i was reading ur diary and u and her bf are so like how i was with my bf before we broke up only i think i was like obsessed with him to the point where if i was without him, i couldnt hardly stand it and Sk8erChick2004 [6:07 PM]: when we break up we never 'act' broken up AeBabe1409 [6:07 PM]: yeah Sk8erChick2004 [6:08 PM]: so when he goes and messes with other girls it hurts us worse AeBabe1409 [6:08 PM]: yeah i kno what u mean Sk8erChick2004 [6:08 PM]: now i wont trust or believe him ever again lol AeBabe1409 [6:08 PM]: haha oh god AeBabe1409 [6:08 PM]: why do u put ur self thru this shit! AeBabe1409 [6:08 PM]: haha Sk8erChick2004 [6:08 PM]: what do u mean AeBabe1409 [6:09 PM]: alll thiss shit with you and him Sk8erChick2004 [6:09 PM]: yea and its all b/c of last winter AeBabe1409 [6:09 PM]: with aliciaa Sk8erChick2004 [6:09 PM]: the lies the drugs and all the girls he messed around with Sk8erChick2004 [6:09 PM]: and the other girls Sk8erChick2004 [6:09 PM]: and the drugs AeBabe1409 [6:09 PM]: yeah, that's fucked up Sk8erChick2004 [6:10 PM]: and me having to find out myself then him denying it Sk8erChick2004 [6:10 PM]: i mean he's like 'psht none of them are as pretty or great as u sam, i love you i never even liked them i was just bored and trying to get over you and i didnt know what to do' AeBabe1409 [6:10 PM]: yeah that's bull shit, i couldnt deal with it Sk8erChick2004 [6:11 PM]: i heard the world on all that shit both of those things struck a cord somewhere in me. i miss bryan. i wish he'd get back on!!! ok welp... leave a comment!