me and bryan talked yesterday and today, he yelled at my best friend heather and now she hates him and is begging me not to give him another chance. please NONE of u tell her that i already have. yep... i gave bryan another chance.... possibly the biggest mistake of my life possibly the best thing ive ever done. only time will tell he wants to pretend like we just met have our 1st kiss all over again our first date all of it but then (while he is saying all this today) he looks down at my legs and loses his thought and says its been a while since we've had sex...... and he was like i love the way ur legs come in and end right at ur cooch..... i was like wtf? and he was like it just looks soft HAHAHAHA it went summin like that but worse. woohoo this wont last.......... hahahaha we'll fuck the next time were together BET YA BUCKS! thats okay i love this boy hehehehe over-used fraze of 'the diary' -i love this boy- yes I STOLED THAT FRAZE FROM MY DEAREST BENA! I LOVE U SABRINA! U KICK ASS! i need 2 get pics up on here of my best friends...... but they wouldnt all fit then a few would end up gettin pissed......... ugh dont u hate when that happens! bryan was talking to me today and took my hand, he didnt take his eyes off me, he brought my hand cupped in both of his to his face and held it tight i wanted to cry but i smiled he tells me he loves my smile........ its what made him ask me out -long story- yea so-- i missed this boy.......... missed his looks his body his heart his touch everything him holding my hand brought back memories heheheh i felt his lips against my finger and his warm breath as he talked i had to touch them......... i cant explain it. i just HAD TO! so i pulled my hand away and tryed to control myself but i couldnt I HAD TO TOUCH HIS LIPS ggrrr and i dont even know why....... maybe cuz i wanted to kiss him so damn bad his lips looked so soft the temptation was unbearable, you wouldnt understand the feeling or why i felt it damn i dont eve know why but it was intense. and it wasnt a sexual drive it was mearly 'want' 'love' 'desire' and 'passion' im glad for this 2nd chance im giving him but scared at the same time. i still cant trust him, and i know thats what he wants......... he broke my trust he did it, nobody made him kiss complete strangers. we'll see what happens i guess, im waiting 4 him 2 get back from saylors now....... *he's going to get a job there possibly* maybe me as well. and my best friend works there too! yay! him getting a job= him getting a license which = a great homecoming which = no more stank ass bus WOOHOO! i also want to add as a final note..... he thinks i was only ever happy when he was spending money on me, thats so damn far from true b/c i love him and i didnt care about the money the things he bought me were hella nice and hella expesive but i didnt need my love bought in fact the happiest night of my life was when i gave him my virginity b/c it was the total act of love........ and i did it to prove to him i was in love. see love doesnt = money that is all leave comments u guys