ok so today sucked... everything about it plain and simple fucking sucked. well at least until my bryan came =D he is such a great comfort! we humped again... woohoo. such a great feeling when its with someone you love. in my whole life ive never loved family, friends, guys, only him he left now tho... im extremely sad :( im moving out of my house 1st chance that arrives. *prolly 2night* i hope 2 stay and finish school, but if i cant thats fine too... ill hide in the woods or anything lol i duno when the next time ill be able 2 write will be. c-yas 4 a bit -update- so i snuck online in hopes that bryan would be on to fill me in but he's not :( i packed my life into a few bags... one full of clothes and a couple pairs of shoes... who knows what my mom will throw away when im gone... *OR STEAL* ones full of cd's books diarys make-up and hair shit i have my big stitch my big box of notes ALL my pictures.. took them all off my walls bryans things and thats about it... if it turns out i cant stay at bryans long... ill have my grandpa come with me back here... ill grab my playstation, my tons of candles my magazines, my cd player and my computer. (the things that i could def live without but will miss dearly) the thing im worried about most is losing this s/n =( i have 200 s/n's on my buddy list... a very well adjusted favorites list and a sweet as fuck profile! *dont worry im transfering my diary over to my yahoo account so its not going anywhere* but if i do move 2 my g-mas... she doesnt have internet anymore i dont think... so i might not be able 2 write until she gets it again :/ but ill keep writing till then. im scared 2 switch schools at this point... ugh. i wish she would homeschool me now... ill talk to her about it... so anyways enuff about that. hahaha bryan bitched at my mom tonight. i told him not to but he did it anyways. i got blamed tho :( but he said he's taking me. YAY! aww like a knight in shinning armor... coming 2 my rescue. i love this boy. i wonder what his mom will say :( he told me she'll have to understand cuz he's not letting me go. i never wanna lose him :'( *sometimes i just blank out and think... wow this is it... im moving out! no looking back, no coming back.... this is the only thing ive ever known.... now ill be free of the hell. im scared as hell of losing bryan along the way but happy as hell to just get away* sometimes it doesnt seem real tho... i dont think it has sunk in yet. :/ id really like to stay in my school but theres no way im coming back here and being stripped of all my rights. fuck that! its time 2 move on... speaking of that. wish me luck with the job hunt woot woot! and of course, with the lisence!