::the way he kisses:: okay this entry is dedicated to the way bryan kisses me... hehehe its dumb i know but its running threw my head non-stop cuz i miss his cute lil ass! welp to start... last night he said the sweetest thing EVER to me... "sam when i touch u it never seems soft enough, because i love you and your so perfect and when you touch me... it sends chills down my spine" and the whole time he was saying that to me... he was gently running his hands down my face and arms so lightly it tickled! god i love this boy! when he kisses me its always always soft and perfect! cute as can be! he sweeps the hair out of my face lightly and puts his hand on my neck or side of my face as he moves in real slow... then he presses his soft warm lips against mine very lightly and passionatly. then he just barely opens his mouth and so do i and his tounge touches mine in the softest way possible... just barely there... but i can still taste the sweet frosting taste of it and feel the warmth of it against mine... but he's never forceful with me he never shoves his tounge down my throat or anything! and that shows me he respects me... and that he's the best kisser ever! hehehehe theres never a dull kiss... everytime he kisses me it makes me shiver with anticipation of what comes next... and thats the greatest thing in the world :) i have the greatest guy ever born. well now ill tell u about last night... i backed away from one of his kisses and he got really upset but it wasnt my fault... i had memories and bad thoughts and dishonesty running threw my head non-stop... and i couldnt kiss him :( i dont want to hurt him i dont want him to think its his fault cuz it isnt... i feel terrible !!!! i love him and i want him to know that but even if i said it 10 million times i dont think he fully believes it... i think he thinks im pulling one over on him to make him feel better... but ive never ever felt this way about anyone else! okay back to the night... from the beginning! i went to the game last night! yay! fun fun fun.... heres the hightlights: -i was followed again by the hoe of the month club.. they annoy me! -i was 'told on' for doing some shit with bryan there... and a cop comes up and says ok thats about all im going to see.... fuckin pig -then i realized the hoes were watchin and told... um okay if there gana be bitches about it why were they watchin and following us around and why do they care? can we say jealousy cuz bryans mine? -so then i grabbed heathers guy friend... and tried to get him away from my prep ass bitch wannabe sister but that was all fucked up... my sister made heather feel like shit! she goes as loud as she can... IM HOTTER THAN HEATHER! fuckin hoe needs slapped! -i chilled with shane... and josh while bryan got yelled at by that cop... (we played hackisack or h/e its spelt) -i chilled with heather too hehehe -i ate fries! yay -then bryan decided we should go to the car 4 more privacy so we did... and he kissed me so soft and slow... but then the 2nd time i pulled away :( like i said... and i dont want to keep hurting him like this but what do i do? -after that we went home :( -we lost the game no suprise... tho i didnt watch any of it... lol -i got to flick off a few cheerleaders but not all of them... bryan also told me the one cheerleader wrote him an email about the hoes thing... hahaha and said she didnt care and she didnt wanna be friends with him anyways... but she still talks to me like its no big! that confuses me! -anyways that was the night basically tonight i wanna *maybe* go see cabin fever w/ bry bry cuz ill do anything to see him!!! and maybe ill have my mom talk to his about spending the night! his mom knows we fuck like rabbits so i duno what the big deal is... now if she knew i might possibly be prego... thats where she would be a bit worried! or should be! hahaha but i want him to stay over... so he can hold me in his arms all night after were 2 tired to move from fucking too much lol! and i love that.... i feel so protected and safe in his arms at night! its the best feeling ever :) id do anything to see him tonight... i know he's coming sunday and we may go to the renn. faire (thats a midevil type thing i go to every year around my b/day but my b/day is full up with parties friends field trips shopping trips... ect! so this weekend or the next will be our trip to the renn. faire! yay! i want bryan to go) i didnt go to school yesterday and bryan told everyone i might be pregnant... grand! i didnt want the world to know but thats okay! welp im hungry and missing my baby so damn much! so leave A COMMENT! i promise ill leave one back! ((still lookin 4 more diary friends... hehehe i dont have many :( lol)) ps.... i havent even had this journal thing a month and im already tired of my layout... so u may see a change in it soon but then again maybe not cuz my wrist is acting up and my paintshop thing hasnt been working 2 the best of its abilty lol well holla back!