yes im feeling: alive.
and the 8th day of x-mas was well rounded
today bryan wasn't at school.
a twist... i got sick as shit.
ugh it was horrible..i actually layed on the bathroom floor. hahaha nasty.
anyways at lunch brandon came up and talked 2 me 4 the 1st time ever... that kids so quiet!
so yea... he gave me his number... said if i ever needed a ride or to vent or just 2 talk to someone... he was there. i guess he picked up on the depression.
yea so me and bryan fought right off the bat when i got home.
i got totally upset and decided i was gana save our relationship and find a ride there. who better to call than brandon.
so i did, but they were going to carlisle tonigt... so he asked if id come and i said no... then i thought about all the times bryan went places without me... specially snowboarding... and who cares if i was with guys cuz he talks to tons of girls up there.
so i went.
lemme tell ya... i havent been out without bryan in 4 eeeever. it was fun =D
i guess this is what ill do when he goes snowboarding... pop a sqwat in coconuts and listen to new cd's or chill in walmart... yea fun!
bandon bought me tiger lillies... thats my favorite flower... it was cute tho cuz he suprised me.
but i feel bad cuz i pretty much ignored him all night and was loud and crazy and acting stupid with mel and brit.
but yea... it was cool 2 be out again.
at the end of the night i was afraid he'd try and kiss me :/ so i stood there and walked closer to him until we were alone. i said thanx 4 the flowers. and told him bye. no kiss. thank you god... u do care!
ok so i did it... i went out and didnt hurt bryan one bit by doing anything... it did hurt him tho...
i find that hypocritical and im going to be doing this more now when he snowboards. and if snowboarding starts to take time away from each other eventually we'll prolly split.
but its other poeple that cause us 2 split cuz ill be stressed from him talking to girls up there.
alright but tonight he said he is going to make us work and we'll be together forever,
it hurts 2 be without him but hurts with him most of the time too. i want the hurt 2 go away. please god take the hoes away!
ok and that jess girl. she broke us up this time but we got back together b4 the night was over... the thing is this bitch tells me 2 stop talking shit, and tells me she isnt talking to bryan anymore... then she sends him our convo.
this bitch needs hurt. it will happen. now i have a great reason.
well tt4n... not feeling well... and skool tomorrow.
omg a week without missing a day! and only 2 more days... 4 until x-mas break... 3 if a snowday.
lol
muah
(ps- ok 4got to say... on 81 we were flicking people off and screaming out windows... it was funny as fuck! sry but that needed 2 be in there.)
as well as... i watched the x-mas lights blink on every house... so beautiful. the snow and the trees in windows... makes the world go away on the outside.
then all the sudden my sister screams MOOSE! and we come to a hault. now that was funny!
*lauren*