omg im not ready 4 this... not ready to come back here... its been a year and still i cry like its yesterday. the entries the pictures the harsh memories i carry in my broken cold heart... i hate him. i wish i could go back in time and walk away from him the day he cried. and i wouldnt be crying now. im too weak for something like this to happen in my life... why fucking me? everyone else has a much better grip on this shit than i do so why me!?! read my other sit or my xanga if u want but i only update here to keep it opened... its still to depressing to come back yet. dont forget me.