today was mad hell! here ill make a list cuz im just 2 damn tired 2 start. -michell never came... called 10 million times -find out he supposed to be 3 places at once -bryan calls and says michell is with him and he told him about what we did (but he lied and said it was all me) -michell wont talk to me ever again -michell lies. i found out he did this same thing to karen last weekend. -bryan believes michells story over mine which goes summin like this: *i* put my hands down his pants while he was trying to sleep... and i tried to kiss him! hherres what really happened... i did the hand thing and he came twice. (i wont go into detail) then he got pissed at me cuz i wouldnt give him head... hell no! he just fucking came and it was all over... eww im not lickin that up. he got pissed and said i didnt finish the job. i was also nscared cuz the boy is huge. and i DID NOT PUT ALL THE MOVES ON HIM... he was kissing my neck he had his tounge in my ear he was running his hands up and down my thighs and squeezing my ass... so i dont wanna hear him say i did everything. so then we layed togther and i thought he was asleep and i rolled on my back... then i rolled back towards him and our faces were like a half inch apart *eyes closed*... he licked his lips and his tounge lightly grazed mine... then i felt all warm and felt his hand run up my thigh and onto my ass and he pulled me closer as he started to kiss me... i just sat there stunned... and his lips parted and i felt his tounge on mine, i kissed back and was really feelin it ya know. i put my hand on his face and he had his on my hair gently running his fingers threw it and kissing me soft for about 15 minutes... then we stopped and we sat there 1st thought was... i made out with a guy with a tounge ring then i thought OH LORD i dont want to hurt bryan i dont want him to now :( i didnt know what to do or what to think... then soon after he left. THAT IS WHAT HAPPENED... minus a few details so back to the list. -bryan calls and is crying -he asks me 10 million questions -i try to get him to believe me, he doesnt -karen tells us everyone is saying we fucked -i call bryan and finally convince him im telling the truth. -i asked bryan what to do about everyone saying we fucked and he told me to go along with it -bryan says he wants me back -i think were back together -bryan 4gave me -he says he loves me -i dont know if were officially together -he is spending my b/day with me and next weekend is the party. i love him. this proves were ment to be and can last ANYTHING! i have a bit of a hangover. it hurts. gah. im upset michell acted like he was putting so much effort into it last night then backed down on his story at all and lied out his ass. im also upset i was used and am being lied about but im fine as long as i got bryan. i need him to help me get threw it and i hope he doesnt blame this all on me because he came onto me a lot and i was upset about bryan and vonerable (sp?) more than anything im upset over bryans pain... hearing him cry then remembering the passion i felt when mich had his hands between my legs last night made me cry. i wish i wouldnt have liked it :(