1st of all today started out suck ass... but ended with a screaming shouting love 4 everything in this world... but ill get to that. anyways... bryan cut his arms some more... damnit! why? am i hurting him now? or is he doing this to prove a point? i hate myself when his world isnt perfect. just wish i could die... today i got to school and all was hell, my dot makes me uncomfortable, and im sick on top of that... icky i went to the nurse 4 the 1st time in 8 years today... not fun. but she seems nice :) bryan was extra nice to me today and i love him 4 that... we ate lunch with heather just us 3... it was nice and fun! we laugh non-fucking-stop... its great being with ur 2 best friends i swear... i got to spend time with bena today too... were doing some gay project for that ac4 class i failed last year hahaha... im doing the 'AIDS crisis' since im so sexually active and all... maybe i shoulda gave that one to bena!!!!!!! hhhhaaaaaa ok well then we got the announcment that all the schools on the east coast were closing down and we got a flash across the comps that said school is closed. YYYYEEEEEAAAAA!!!!!! were being pegged with isabel already... we got high winds... the flooding started a few hours ago and since i live in the valley its double time... i miss my bryan so damn much... hahahahahahaha bena wore a 'cheerleader' shirt today of amanda tritts... i was like oh god REMOVE IT it was hilarious... me and her are like not the sporty type.... ive played ever fucking sport in school since 6th grade but i hated them all cept soccer which i was kick ass at but needed more time 4 friends and time to finally get a boyfriend which wasnt until about 9th grade.... i feel behind... hahaha then i had 4 or 5 off and on guys then bryan.... now im engaged and happy. *we have our shit but i love him* ok well then there was chesly being in the library today when i was there... i broke down... all the way down... i felt the tears pouring out of my eyes but i wasnt crying...... i cant explain it.... alls i know is that girl made my life shit and she still has shit 2 say... the second she walked in my mind skipped back to easter... skipped back to the pain i felt, the dreams i had the hurt i felt... and i wanted to cry.... she doesnt like me... for god knows what reason (she's the one that tried to get with MY man) but i dont care she just needs 2 stop her shit cuz i could care less... i just cant deal with bryan and my issues surrounding her... i could care less ABOUT her. i wish everyone in the world like that would die. welp i got home and realized my goddamn simple plan cd is in bryans locker... im sad... a whole 3 days without my pierres sexy voice (PISSED) bryan got mad at me last night too... for my entry about him flirting with every girl he see's IM NOT withdrawing my comment... it still stands it still is true but i love him and he knows it... know whats cute... he smells good... not like he has anything on him but like his natural smell (its so warm and comfotable... specially by his neck... his neck is so soft and warm) i like to lay my face right on his shoulder pressed against his neck... then i get this erge to lick it and suck on it... hehehehe HILARIOUS! its my favorite part of him... his neck and his arms! woah god damn!!! when he's on top of me and were humpin... his arms make me soooo horney cuz they are so damn cute and so damn perfect except for these new scars! i know my diary name is CANTBEPERFECT but he can be... he is, he's way beyond perfect and he's mine :) to end this id like to say.... someone i know was thinking about suicide and this brightened my day even more... truth is i hate this fucking person. some people need to do the world a favor and get it over with... lol sry this was long... leave a comment