bryan pissed me off to NO END today... he broke another promise... ANOTHER one! i wanted to run away and cry pretty much the whole damn day! im so happy i have heather! she gave me 10 million hugs 2day and i feel like a human again for the 1st time in a couple days : ive really put my friends down lately and lost all but 7 or 8... but its the *true* friends that are there when ur about to take a gun and put it to ur head! and they hug u and cry with u... i dont know where i fucked up my life so bad but for the past 3 days alls i thought about was how big a part of my life bryan is... and if i lost him i really truly have nothing to live 4 anymore... he is basically the reason i stayed in school and the reason why im alive today b/c i was starving myself the 3 weeks b4 we got together... and being with him made me healthy again and i gained my 17 lbs back... (im not fat lol i weigh about 101) but thats not the point... the point is im losing a great part of my life all b/c i put so much love and trust into something thats not 2 be trusted... like i said... another broken promise. i dont know what 2 do... i could just use some time away from everything *no1 cares... im used to it* ((leave me some kisses! if u comment me ill comment u back... promise!))