i finally got 2 talk to bryan! he got online and i had this away msg on: why am i dying to live if im just living to die. what am i trying to see when there aint nothing in sight. and he starts telling me off 4 no reason... i was like thats from tupacs song and i have respect 4 his death... he starts sayin shit like, "oh yea your ghetto fabulous" and all this and i flipped. that is *who i was* all my life until i stopped listening to so much of that and falling into more emo type music. so of course i got pissed. i get put down 4 all the great loves in my life and im sick of it. then i finally said *FUCK YOU* and he said bye then he got back on and didnt know wtf i was so pissed about and i sent the convo and said refresh ur mem? and he told me it wasnt him!!!!! ok i partically believe that. so it was his brother, i heard. his brother needs to die then after talking to the real bryan for about 7 minutes i had 2 get offline... gawd! i been waiting since yesterday 2 talk to him then i had 2 go. so i snuck back on at 3 am and been on ever since. this prep girl on my bus gave me a good charlotte poster monday... i hung it up tonight. its so cute lol. it reminds me of the one bryan bought me :/ even tho sum bitch ass punk stole it. ASSHOLES! yep and my kitty orion is sleeping on my bed. adorable! im suprised my typing doesnt wake him up... he still looks like a kitten after 2 years! man orion and bryan are the 2 great loves of my life lol. ok so anyways im gana go grab some very addictive cereal called honey B's *its winnie the pooh* and sooooo yummy! lol ttyl. ps. ok im finding my layout ideas all over the site... hahaha, yea i must either be totally popular on here or totally cool. but no longer unique. some new girl took my background hahaha. kinda upsetting, i did brittanies layout but everyone tells HER its great. eh... thus the reason i could not sell my poems to be made into music. i cant have other peaople take credit 4 my ideas. :/