so sad. bryan came over, when he gets home he'll get his ass kicked 4 stealing the car. he brought me everything i ever gave him. gah. a big box of random things through out the relationship. it consists of: a stuffed bunny a yellow rose the puppy he sleeps with every night a beaver i made out of clay *took 3 weeks* and he broke it the 1st day. a lil towel bunny that i said we would use 4 our future baby the pecies he broke off the beaver money he had left over from the 1st bag of m&m's he bought me... how cute is it that he saved it? a huge bag full of letters i wrote him the pic he stole from art class of me a pic of us @ x-mas last yr which he tore in half :( a bunch of notebooks we wrote letters back and forth in... and on one it says "come back :( im lonely i need you so badley" a lil note i left in his locker one day, he highlighted 'forever' in the note and put '?' marks movie stubs the can of kisses i gave him on v-day with a broken necklace inside that he was going to fix :( and some other small random objects :( funny he didnt give me back the picture frame with out pic in it that i gave him on v-day (all stuff i made or gave to him) i think he wants me to read all that and look at it all so i will come back and stay with him until winter. but then again he took the sweatshirt. that pissed me off a bit and i was in the bath when he came and he seen my razor blades and took the fuckers. ooh i was about 2 scream. it took 20 minutes 2 get the damn blades out of the razor then he takes them just like that! uggggghhhhh. then in the bottom of the box was a letter from natasha. ugh wtf was that all about? god... for trying to get me back and sitting here preaching 'trust me' thats not doing a bit of good. i cried the whole time he was here. he grabbed me and held me, he said TAKE ME BACK a million times. im so weak i almost did. if he woulda asked once more i woulda caved. he kissed me and said it was a last kiss but i went off on that. then he said it wasnt a last kiss and that we'll be married. i was 2 hurt to realize i was sooo hungry. but now the hunger has struck and it hurts just as bad... i had 4 gotten to eat for the past 2 days :/ well im gana go grab a bite of something besides my diet for the past 2 days which was nothing but candy! oh and im starting another novel. this will be the 4th but i only ever did finish the 1st one. the others will prolly rot away. oh well. my rents made a fire out front and are eating. i will join. ps. id like 2 say hi 2 my new buddy john! yay! we hate pink together! he rox :)