'we need to talk' ok thats what bryan said. it cant get any worse than it is with us now. whats worse than wanting each other but not being together because your unsure. he loves me so much it hurts him. i can see that. he is waiting 4 me to change and stop being so depressed i can see it in the words he spells out. he says it hurts him that im not perfectly happy. he thinks its his fault. its not tho. he gets upset and i actually do think its over... a year. over. but then a few hours later his IM pops up and im happy all over again. im stuck in a joyfully melancholy state. last night i said so are you coming back and he said it was hard... "i actually ment online tho" but that shows a sign he isnt giving up... he must have told me 10 times this weekend that he cant walk away from me cuz he loves me. so i think we need to talk means something more like... we need to get the hurt out in the opened so we can figure out how to be together and happy. at least i hope. i mean it cant mean worse than where we are. he isnt touching other girls and im obviously not doing anything but thinking about him. so we are at a level playing field. if he wants no one but me and i feel the same towards him either we will get things straight or well be single and unhappy till one of us ends up taking our own life. im planning something big 4 us. not just christmas presents, but something wondeful i can do 4 him that no1 else has done... something as big as when we gave each other our virginity. were in love. and our love is strong. no one else will come between us. people have tried but yet weve lasted so no one ever will. i know in the end we can make this work. i know it in my heart. read my user info. we didnt make all that up. we lived that. theres no way either of us will 4get that. he told me he was looking at pictures of us *sigh* me too. i cant wait to see him at school tomorrow. the temptation to kiss him is going to be overwhelming but ill try to be strong and resist. if he kisses me tho... *wink wink* i shall not be held reponsible if i drag him in the bathroom and fuck his brains out. hahaha tt4n. ps. i dont know if im pregnant... ugh. im just a week late. so please people theres ur answer. stop asking.