sry for my absence. life just sux sometimes. anyways today is thanksgiving... my family will be at my g-mas... ill *supposedly* be at bryans g-mas... really ill be staying home alone no holiday 4 me. im going to watch the parade, then charlie browns thanksgiving then go to bed... no food. its cold today. its supposed to rain... since we live in the valley it'll be snow here. that'll be nice add to my pain why dont ya. fucking crystalized shit. anyways u havent missed anything in the past few days... i slit my wrists a few times... 6 or 7 cuts... not very deep, did it last night. i talked to my counsler... looks like he has a tupee (sp?) yea we talked about my classes 4 next year. *i wanted to say... i wont last that long dont bother* but i smiled nicely and agreed. 4 classes i need 2 pick and im done in the fall. he said he would get me on co-op... that means i need 2 get my lisence, they will give me the job. besides that U MISSED NADA DAMN THING! lol my other diary gets my attention. if you wanna become a friend on [suicidal] leave a comment in my user info chatter box. well tt4n