hey sam, wher are the pics? cant wait to see them! [anonymous (152.163.252.38)] pics are on there way whoever u are hehe erm... today was bad. i think i was still coming off that hangover... gah! thats what happens when ur as small as me and havent drank shit in months and months. besides that it was one of those days when u realize dumb shit... for one thing... *when u sit in quiet 4 sooo long then u hear a noise ITS AMPLIFIED!* thats a hangover 4 ya and some reason hangovers make me stop and think about things more clearly but i also realized i 'dont belong' i dont know what it is i dont belong to... but i know i dont. maybe its school, society, with bryan, or all of it. i sit there and look at how fake these dumb bitch preps are... i was stuck sitting behind a whorish one today listening to her annoying ass mouth for an hour. i suppose bryan knows her from shit he said about her. ooh that makes me feel great. and he told me to shut the fuck up and called me a bitch right in front of her too... gave her even more to talk about... i also thought about how girls can treat other guys fine... popularity really isnt an issue... they all get along. girls with girls on the other hand is like a cat fight to the finish. a fight to the death.... no matter if u know the person or not... and EVERYONE fucking talks about everyone else! wtf!!! (i wonder if guys have 2 deal with that... i doubt it... seems 2 me like guys dont understand it cuz they dont have to go threw it) bryan seems 2 know everyone. i seem to hate everyone. i think its him i feel i dont belong with. or society in general... since i cant stand people anymore. since the fakeness of it all makes me sick and since i finally understand that song *im on the outside and im looking in, i can see threw u see the real u, inside ur ugly, ur ugly like me* ooh well. im glad 4 the select friends i do have and pray to god everyone else burns. i think people are starting 2 forget im alive. ive ditched so many people. i dont know when this started either. prolly when i found out bryan didnt care as much about me as i did about him and i started to put him b4 my friends... when he put his friends 1st and he went and found random girls to makeout with. i feel very random now. less special. i gave up a lot on the world. ps. derrick is getting me an application 2 work at a local nursing home its good pay and all.... hope they hire me... i heard they take anyone