bryan left me a cute comment in my last entry... awww... i woke up and my arm was killing me... turned out to be a lil bump thats red in the middle and bruised around it... not that bad but a lil painful... damn him i dont see why he did that. but still last night was fun even if we didnt do anything =) its funny how when u break up with sum1 you dont miss the presents or the dates to the movies... you miss their arms around you and they way they say 'its ok' when you cry... thats what u miss. thats what makes it love i swear on my life ID NEVER WANT ANOTHER GUY ever. it just wouldnt feel right being held by anyone else. bryan said i fit perfectly in his arms last night, and that he'd never love anyone else. he thinks i dont believe him but i do... its just that i dont want him stolen away from me... its funny cuz he feels the same way about about me... this is what he said: SoMeThInGbAd31: i fuck everything up SoMeThInGbAd31: i would not be surprised if you leave me sam SoMeThInGbAd31: cuz i need to be alone SoMeThInGbAd31: just to be a lonely person for the rest of my life= SoMeThInGbAd31: because i am not a good boyfriend SoMeThInGbAd31: and i am sure it crosses your mind everyday to leave me and i know u guys know thats not true. i dont want him to feel that way... i think he was upset b/c he hurt my arm... but its better now. he left for DC to see his sick aunt :( our time together is almost transparent. i hate it... i need to go get my lisence so we can meet in like... carlum or summin... this winter and snowboarding is gana be ruff (as if we already arent doing great.) if we survive this winter we can survive anything. i still need 2 go x-mas shopping... i ned 43 cards... jesus my hands are gana be tired when im done. i also need to buy heathers gift... marias... and bryans cd. thats not a lot of money... erm... should be under 30 all together. good cuz im rather poor lately. i made a list of all the things i want... but prolly wont get... keyboard--yea im putting my poems to music its so gana rock. new tv/dvd--yea i love my vhs but i have 300 dvd's and we only have 2 dvd players in the house. bracelettes- my obsession. and u guys know that!!! posters- STILL covering my walls... vhs tapes- ohh yea... some oldies too... classics like romeo & juliet w/ leo dicaprio and Forest Gump LoL cd player- my old one has been over used... getting worn a new betta- my kitty 'baby orion' ate my last one... that fish-napper! but he was only a kitten (how could i have gotten mad at that big round fluffy ball) homemade shepards pie!!!! made by bry bry. and thats it. ok anyways heathers starting a diary... yay... i should decorate it 4 her... everyone else asks me to do theirs. ok well...i think im gana clean my room since x-mas is in 5 days and im bored... and i have been putting off decorating... lol. yep so tt4n. leave comments! lol