the amount of trust i had for anyone ( already so small) is gone. but i am getting out of this depressive rut tomorrow. and getting everything i need to get done, done. i am: going to work out. going to the mall and finish my grad shopping. cleaning out my car. cleaning out my room and closest and getting rid of my old clothes. going to eat very healthy and stop eating like shit! going tanning. doing all my homework. chem lab/questions, social review... going to work going to get over and forget this bullshit. i am better than all of this.. and shit just isnt going to phase me anymore. but i still wont trust people. and im not going to give anything away so easily. not my heart, my body, my thoughts or my secrets. not my fears, my anxietys.. anything that people can use against me. because it makes me too vulnerable and i have been fucked over so many times. so maybe i should stop writing on here and giving all that away... ...or do strangers care?