as the title expresses.. sitdiary pretended i didn't exist for a while which was unfortunate. i had some juicy gossip in my life not time so ago and everything was just fantastic. and i'm not even being sarcastic. that first semester of university was the happiest i have ever been in years. and now i come back for christmas break (after seeing him, and contrary to me believing that i was over him and all his words, i clearly wasnt) and i'm sad. and alone. well not techincally alone.. i have the best friends that i've made here but i am around them 24/7. we eat every meal together. we hang out together everyday. we have to share everything with eachother and i'm frankly just sick of it. i love them, but i need a bit of an atmospherical change. and i am sick of having a fucking roommate who listens to the music in her ipod as loud as a sonic boom ( i really don't know how loud a sonic boom is, or if it is even loud.. something to do with breaking the sound barrier.. ??) but it's loud as fuck even with her headphones and i cannot focus on anything. anyways. my life is incredibly boring actually. usually it's not this bad. i got banned from the campus bar for a year last weekend so now my drinking opportunites, already miniscul, have decreased greatly again. ya i dont even know why i'm writing in here.. i have nothing else to say. my apologies.