i just drank a redbull. ohnoooo!!! i have 2 tests tomorrow. ohnoooo!! and 1 the day after. ahhhh!!!! and then i fly home on FRIDAY OH JA OH JA i really just need to survive for 2 days. feels like an eternity though. i dont really know what to expect when im home. will he want me? will he be nice to me? will he make me feel good or doubt myself as always? i hate that i still have to ask myself these things...... i know what it means, i just choose to ignore it. always always always. even though i would probably marry him.