i am very hungover and have a lot of bad feelngs about myself and my situation right now. i slept at brendans last night and i was way too drunk. i didnt sleep with him but i think i just may have said and done stupid annoying shit. i think scott has had it with me because i disappeared on him "again" last night. and ben hasnt been talking to me since i ignored some of his texts earlier this week. i went to his hockey game and watching him play made me like him more haha so i texted him after and have been ignored. i probably deserve it though, so whatever. laurie is in england for her granddads funeral and i have not been supportive enough for her at all. i am a very selfish, shitty friend. and potential alcoholic...... thats not even a joke.