i am seriously seriously unhappy. saying depressed just sounds too cliche these days. but its true. im fucking miserable. even when im happy, i know that im truly fucking miserable. i dont know what to do anymore...i thought that maybe male attention was the answer but that definately isnt it. its always what you cant have hey. like right now, its motivation and some fucking willpower. i definately dont have those. i need to go to africa or something.. get the fuck out of here. go somewhere. anywhere.