hm here is an update... on sat we tied 1-1 to a not very good team. i played. i think i almost had a concussion at the end of the game but all i am left with is a cut above my eye. our rookie party was afterwards. the first time i drank in 2 months. i just wish i was a rookie because it definately was not as fun as last year. i say i want a guy but im not interested in a single person. "so what res do you live in?" "howe hall" "so.. did you wanna go back to howe hall?" HAHA GIVE ME A FUCKING BREAK. why i was even talking to you in the first place.. i dont know. on sunday we recovered. heard stories of everyone elses night and was shocked at how many people hooked up with others. i guess im just old fasioned... haha but only a little. today: i went to yoga. did not love it the way i usually do and found that i was seriously unfocused. came home to make some tea and poured boiling water all over my hand. went to calculus but left halfway through because the pain was unbearable. read my book and slept. went to practice and sucked and found out that our coach is beginning his "everything is about winning" methods which therefore means everything in practice is a competition, and if you dont win, you sprint. i guess its not bad though. it definately increases the intensity. makes some people actually give a shit. i talked to my younger sister on the phone for a half hour tonight which is strange because we were never very close and i hate talking on the phone. it really upsets me that she lets her friends walk all over her. it upsets me because i was like that in highschool as well and i was MISERABLE. and now that im in university and realize how much i have going for me and how much those people just dont fucking matter. i wish i could make her see. i dont want her to be sad. my hand really really hurts...