went to the gym today:) i am so out of shape but have actually enjoyed going.. hopefully this is a sign of things to come. i also deactivated facebook today. see how long this lasts.

i cant stop thinking about B2 (thats what im calling him from now on). i hate guys. i hate how i feel about myself right now. i think i rreeeeaaallllllyyyy just need to stop taking myself so seriously and stop trying to have so much control over my life. just take things as they come and go with the flow. and just RELAX. im not perfect. no one is. even if it seems like it, they arent.