life is better. soccer season is over amd i never achieved goal number 1. but thats okay. im still happy. i have a love interest right now. thats helping. he is really great.. kind of perfect for me i think.. but there is something nagging me in the back of my head and i dont know what it is. but im sure ill figure it out. im doing well in school except for one class. im currently writing two papers for it right now.. but having trouble focusing. i never went on antidepressants.. i decided to go the "natural" route and take omega-3 and vitamin d supplements instead and i think they have helped a lot. or maybe its in my head. but either way im happier. i have a shit ton of work to do this week but once its over its smooth sailing for a while. im getting so drunk this weekend and making some very bad decisions. on a side note, ive started to really hate being told im pretty, sexy, hot etc...... all i want is to be told that im interesting and have a nice personality. seriously. thats it. like the other night i was with this new boy (CR) and we were drunk in my bed and he says "you have such a hot body" and i say "well.. you have a nice personality" HAHA.. i actually dont remember this but this was his account. i thinks thats the best response ive ever given to anyone.