me not talking to him didnt even last an entire day. im talk to him right now actually and apparently hes going to europe for A MONTH in summer. im never going to get to fucking see him and i cant do this. ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh i want to throw up im crying i need to get over him. i cant go on being like this. i cant keep waiting for him. i know he likes me but we both want 2 different things and its so obvious to me now and is eating me up inside. the hope coming from feeling so close, and the devastion from realizing just how far away i am is just the worst combination of feelings i have ever felt before.