back from second training session of the day, and second cuts. ANOTHER one of my roomates is cut! fuck! i cant even believe this.. i was so stoked to be living in a house with my teammates/bestfriends but now there are only two of us left... and the team still isnt made. its making for such an awkward house too now. cause no one else in the house likes amanda much and she is the only one left with me. and i just feel so bad. and lonely actually... i wasnt that close with anyone else on the team except these girls. its really sad i guess, cant begin to imagine how they feel. everyone who is left is going to tidal bore rafting tomorrow so im pretty excited for that. dont know what to expect though with all my best friends gone. anyways though, i need to focus on just making the team myself cause thats all i can do now, and its what i want. anyways as the new school year and soccer season aproaches, i want to lay out my goals for the year. 1. STARTING keeper 2. deans list (at least 3.7) 3. boyfriend 4. job right after soccer season, save $1000 for europe. i will have to work really hard but thats okay. i think thats when im happiest. and it would be realy nice to have a boyfriend... or just a boy. to have someone to text. to be smiley about. and to watch movies and dexter and summer heights high with. to go on dates with!! that is what i really want, maybe more than everything else. but maybe not. i need to have a shower before rafting tomorrow. nightynight