and by this i mean.. my situation?

i was in the library minding my own business in the stacks and my anxiety about why brendan and i hadnt spoken in 2 days was driving me CRAZY. so i left. thinking that i had ruined everything by doing some unknown thing. god i wish i didnt care so much! but then i get home and start making dinner (pasta with shrimp and kale - delish) and when i return to my phone perhaps an hour later, i have a missed call from him! i did not call back though, i had soccer and what not tonight. but im winning right now i think. however, he seems like a guy who would just quit if i seem TOO uninterested so im working on a balance right now. hum im happy though. and im messaging some guy who i met the other night at our kegger. hes referring to me as "cinderella" for dissapearing the other night. i like that. but im not interested in him.

i just talked to CM on msn for a while and he said that brendan texted him about partying this weekend. and brendan rarely talks to him...... so maybe im being a little arrogant BUT IM PRETTY SURE he was messaging him in hopes of getting to see me, because he knows me and CM are together alot. so i like this!! this is going to be a great weekend i think. but I NEED TO GET THIS PAPER DONE OMFG.

ugh i had a coffee tonight at like midnight (ask me what i was thinking) its now 230am and there is no end in sight. i got the new gaga and john mayer album tonight and am anjoying myself quite a bit. i just want to be lady gaga.... SHOW ME YOUR TEETH