the ups and downs of my emotions, mood, and motivation are killing me. its a downward spiral right now. im clawing at the walls trying to pull myself up but my fingernails are just breaking off (how very poetic of me).

ya i feel like shit. i feel overwhelmed and i feel like i cant trust anyone. i feel alone. i feel like i cant talk about the way i feel to anyone in this house. i really just want to go home. i dont want to be here at all. i dont want to do school work anymore. i dont want to be stressed about money, or stressed about anything - drama, relationships (more the lack of), being hurt, letting people down, being out of shape.

uhggihg$^%&^$&%!$% fuck i want to go home so bad it hurts.