i want to turn mny brain off. i think too much. tooooooooooooooo much and it's making me so depressed. as dramatic as i sound, i just feel as though there is no hope for civilization anymore. after watching the news, after reading, after even being on facebook. there are just so many issues that all just seem so equally important, but too many to fix. it wont happen. and being on facebook just made me realize how superficial everyone is. everyone. it makes me not want to speak anymore just for fear of sounding like everyone else. it makes me not to wear a nice outfit to school just so i dont feel as though im trying to fit in, or trying to look like anyone else. i wish i could just stop thinking. i feel like im going insane. and i feel like im being terrible to my friends because i am just such an awful mood and i cant stand to be around anyone. not them, not anyone. everything i know just makes me not want try, makes me want to put forth no effort, but i know that its just not an option. and knowing that makes me feel like im putting my priorties over those the of the world and civilization. what it would be like to be blissfully unaware.. i am going fucking nuts.