still think im getting sick.. lame. so tonights plan is: head to craig's boss's house around 7 [they are picking us up]. they are supplying seafood( including LOBSTER, and seafood CHOWDER.. omfg i cant wait ), and unlimited booze... including a keg. i just might die. if craig ruins everything by confessing his love, im not sure what i'll do. but ive decided not to worry about it and deal with it when/or if it happens.

i saw some pictures of brendan on facebook and he used to be like.. one of those skinny fat guys haha. but.. it didnt bother me?! which is weird because im pretty vain and love my big muscly football players (ie-B). however, i see brendan goes to the gym everyday now so im assuming he still not like that. i just thought it was interesting that i didnt care. we still havent talked though. ineed to stop thnking about him. and boys in general. and just my lifeand have fun... and write that paper.