the weather has been amazing lately. i think it is one reason why i am not staying in bed till 1pm anymore. planning on doing a 730am run tomorrow morning. we'll see how that pans out. i just put music on my shuffle that my work gave me last summer, so hopefully that will make for an enjoyable run.

ive realized that i have become pretty amazing at just dropping people from my life. i dont feel like i should be proud of this talent, but it does make life so much easier. instead of dealing with the hurt, i just run from it. i had to do it to B so many times, from my friends everytime i leave home for school, and now its like everytime i am about to get hurt or do get hurt, i just peace out. undecided whether this makes me a strong or weak person. but i guess it doesnt matter.

i think slye and her bf are going to bed getting back together soon. he went to go see a counseller just like she wanted him too. i want them to get back together because he is really cool and opens up my group of friends quite substantially, but at the same time i know i will be bitter. i spent two weeks of my life watching her cry at every moment, listen to her say the same things over and over and over. it was physically and mentally exhausting and i feel unappreciated. and i am still alone.

apparently this boy on the hockey team REALLY likes me though. not sure why. we dont know eachother that well. i sat with him in physiology though. trying not to give it too much thought... cause when i do that i go CRAZZYYY.

night night.