lauries grandpa died last night. she called me but i missed it, and normally i wouldnt bother calling back but i had a strange feeling something bad had happened so i called her back but she didnt answer. she sent me a text this morning. i texted her back but im not sure if she wants me to call her or not. it just... when someone dies, what do you say? like her and i cant hang out, she lives in another province. so anything i do really has to be over the phone. i might send her a card or something though. i just dont want her to be sad because she is pretty much the only person in the world who can make me feel better about anything.

so its blizzarding outside. if i had a car i could drive to the grocery store and the gym. but i dont. and its a 15 minute walk to either of them. ive been detoxing today though at least. fruit smoothie w/ flax, yogurt, and fibre, hot water w/ lemon, green tea, and 1 piece of toast with 1 egg.

yikes ben just asked me to go out.... he said "go eat or movie? or both?" and the only thing i care about is if he is paying or not because i AM BROKE :( does that make me a bad person?