went to a psychologist today. i cried... even though i went there with no intention of discussing anything remotely sad. afterwards i went to the library but could not do anything. left and slept for 4 hours. i hadnt showered in 4 days.

im such a mess on the inside, im scared its going to start showing on the outside.

but on more positive note, i found out how much money im going to be making this summer. its a RIDICULOUS amount...... im fucckkkking stoked. one more month till home. and then EUROPE MO FUCKKAA!!