instead of going to bed at 430am and waking up at 1pm like i have been for the last two weeks, last night i went to bed at 330am (my biological clock does not allow any earlier than that)(seriously), and woke up at 830am. had 2 eggs, 2 pieces of toast, honeydew, grapefruit and green tea for breakfast. i probably peed about 7 times while i was at the library. drank 2 red bulls. but i covered ALL the material before my exam. i honestly cant say that i have ever done that before. mind you i didnt read the textbook.. which inevitably was my demise when i wrote the exam. fucking tricky as shit. and im pissed. i studied for a fucking week. whatever. now i have to pull a 16 hour library day + 16 hour library day + 8 hour library day before my neuroscience exam. im terrified for it. im in a shitty mood. i found out a half hour before my exam that there is another rumor about me fucking one of my friends on the basketball team. and i guaran-fucking-tee he started it. WTF? i dont have sex with people. i havent slept with anyone here. im the only one of my friends who hasnt fucked a random here yet i get all the rumors spread? god damnit its fucking frustrating. i would never sleep with him. its laughable. HA-HA. it wont stop fucking raining. and tornadoe-ing. i just wanna go home and go grocery shopping and eat HEALTHY all the time like i do when im home. res food is god awful. and i just wanna work out 24/7; i havent in 2 weeks. thats makes me think of all these girls back home who are all apparently going to the gym now. they like to advertise it by putting it in their facebook statuses and msn names. give me a fucking break. i bet you run for 5 minutes and attempt to do an ab workout. and then smoke a cigarette and get mcdonalds after. these girls wouldnt know what healthy living was if it grabbed them by the throat. ya im a bitch. i guess i cant really talk when im inhaling redbull everyday. but hey... it's sugar-free. right now i dont even care about seeing BG. (ive decided im only using initials from now on so i can talk about anyyything i want). he told my best friend that he's really excited to me see and hopes that things will happen and obviously things are(WERE) going to happen. but now i dont want them to. i dont know why. i just hate everything about the thought of relationships and being anywhere close to caring or being cared for. i want nothing to do with guys anymore. only guy friends. i want to surround myself with my guy friends from home. i love you, i miss you. god i have 3 FULL DAYS till im home. i have a stop over in montreal on my way home and im getting so wasted in the air canada lounge. and then continue drinking on the plane because im legally able to buy acohol everywhere in canada. oh YEEEEEEEEE.