he is tearing up my insides and i dont even know WHY because i can think of a million reasons why he is not appealing. i have a paper due tomorrow that i havent started.. as per usual. i have become obsessed with what i eat and working out. ironic... i am so confused about every aspect of my life and i am trying so hard to forget that i am by constantly busying myself, but i cant and i dont know what to do. all i want to do is run and be perfect and on a side note.... 'its not like im a slut or that i really like to fuck i just want every boy i see to walk away with part of me until theres nothing left to hold until theres nothing left to hate i appreciate your help but even you cant save me from myself' i want to be so much different than i am