sometimes i just wish that i was with a GIRL. i mean, i love her to death, but i just miss having a GIRLfriend sometimes. i actually find the whole sloppy-gender look very sexy most of the time. (where a guy is a lil feminine (clothes or hair, w/e) or a girl is a lil masculine) but i think when im with the girl, i want a girl. for a relationship. i want someone with cute hair and cute clothes and all that nice stuff. this sounds so bitchy and wrong. but i needed to vent... which brings me to the introduction of this journal. diary. sorry. I actually started off at another name. but one of my girlfriends friends was reading it, and ended up telling my girlfriend everything, and the url. and i just wanted this to be private. i still feel it was more private before, before emily decided that she was gonna have a sit diary too. but its okay. i wont get found out. and ill vent. and never hurt anyone. i think its the healthiest thing ever to be able to vent. and everyone does it. and its rarely somethiing that should be shared with anyone. so that is what this is. a vent. to let all the bad steam out of me. ahhhh... so cleansing. desiree just went home. that girl started to bug me. i love her. but two girls with low-seratonin levels and no bud isnt very fun. so im kinda glad to be seeing emily tomorrow. oh no. i need money. im need more bud. and a bob marley sweatshirt and shirt. oh fuck yeah. you can read my old jrnl if you want, its under my website. its the one that got discovered. i just dont want everyone judging me on my first entry as a stoner. not. a. stoner. so anyways, im off.