its not really cheating is it? how are you cheating? its like youve cheated because you got out your sexual frustration or desire or whatever. you cheated the game. cheating implies a competition or game. there should be another word for it. i should think of it. too bad i cant. blech. i just thought that "to cheat" does not really work for when you have a fling with a person while tied with another. any suggestions for a new word? maybe words.. one for physical cheating, one for emotionally, one for both. hmmm.... anywho, i got two cute shirts today. one only $6 because i got it at nordstrom rack 40% off. the other i got at the mall. and its cute. and i realized that i have indeed gained at least 5 lbs. maybe even closer to 10. i need the fucking gym. but ive stuck to my resolution and im buying longer shirts. i am mysteriously intrigued by donovan. i want to have his children... too bad hes probably 70 or 80 now. eeeewwwww. my mom never smoked dried bananas... she said she was too smart for that. balooga. that would have been fun to laugh at. my mother is losing her hearing. its fun as hell. she responds to everything as though we said something completely different. heheheheh. i think im the only one completely amused. oh and i finished dante. i want to read it again. but i really should finish harry potter. goodbye.