i saw beauty today. wowee hasnt it been awhile? I cant remember the last time i drove along the freeway and thought and saw beauty. okay, so i can, but i cant think of a time when i was sober and i did. so everything is great. im suprised. but only because its normal. and normalcy is not usually a part of my life. i got a B on my first trig test. i lost a pound and a quarter. hehe. not much but its a start. im running tomorrow morning. ive been doing all my homework. and i watched frida the other night. which was really good. i even have film in my camera. and tomorrow im going downtown to look for things for a halloween costume at the thriftstores. probably by myself. ahhh, how i love social places by myself. its so great. everything has sorted out, im on top of everything, and i cannot believe i actually know what this feels like. i cant remember the last time i felt like this. today in drama i got to "try out" for the poets part three times. man, it was fun. i am so glad im a poet. its so fun and i get to dress up like a crazy mama jama! yay! my big nici is going to leave me one day. i am oh so sad still. it doesnt seem real. today alicia told me not to do drugs. its nice to know shes concerned... but is she really? shes just got this view implanted in her head that any drug is bad. and considering that ive got everything in order, does it really matter if i smoke a little ganja every now and then? i think not! i miss going to bob marley concerts. man, i really miss that guy. i realize that hot hot heat is comming up... and i need to get some money. and bud. and oh man why does everything cost money? this sucks. but life is good. and i saw beauty in the sky today. and in peoples faces. i feel good. and i dont hate that stuck up bitch named carissa to an extended point. she just bothers if i let her. but i smile at her when i pass her in the halls. so its good. the scottish guy in my drama class is very cute. so is ellison. ooh i gush!