So I'm sitting in the car with my parents, just watching them, when I realize, I am made up of half the guy who listens to music and really takes it apart and listens to the technical beauty of it and appreciates it because he's a musician and half the girl who just listens and likes it because it feels, it breathes, and her whole body breathes with it because it's real and that's all that matters. And I'm the other half, the complete opposite and match to the girl who chose A's over drugs and who plans ahead and worries and stresses and is too humane to mess with anyone's mind. I'm the one who chose to learn through a cloud of smoke and jumble of philosophies created all her own and never plans ahead and doesn't mind screwing up if it means not being stressed and finds it the funnest in the world to have power over someone and to manipulate their mind. I guess I've got an ounce of cruelty in me but I just turn it into fun. Power. I have so much power right now. I'm in the best relationship I could possibly be in for many many reasons. I was definately scared of a relationship, but then I realized I can break plenty of rules and still be well off. And it's summer. I am so good.